On a more serious note...

My blog is meant to be a journal for my family. I am a horrible journal writer (each of my kids has a journal I write in... but it can be months between entries). This blog is meant for them. I just happen to let the public view the thoughts and events of our life because 99% of what goes on in our lives is fun.

I really, really didn't want to publish this info for all. I tend to be pretty private when it comes to my trials, but for it NOT to be included would be remiss as it is an experience that is a part of our lives right now and I want my children to know how I felt when this happened.

I SO do not want to dwell on this. I have made peace with the loss and moved on. This is why I did not tell my parents about it as it is just too emotional for me to convey so I'd appreciate those who talk to me on a regular basis not to feel sorry for me. Let's all be grateful with what we have and focus on the present and future. Remembering and honoring, but with the intent of constantly moving forward.

To my baby

But for a brief moment I carried you with me,

my sweet little baby to be.

Your presence gave us much joy and excitement

wondering just how fun you would be.

But you were taken too soon from the warmth of my womb

to return to your heavenly home

Surrounded by angels and others sweet spirits

surrounding a heavenly throne.

Late summer will come and with sadness I'll wonder

if you were a girl or a boy

Would you have been a teacher, an engineer, a lawyer

would you have been boisterous or coy?

But God has a plan for each family he makes

sometimes the timing's not right

Perhaps you will join us in the years to come

or your memory we will hold through the night.

Whatever is meant to be for our home,

we know this one thing to be true

That God has a plan for each woman and man

and with His love we will all make it through.

So with a happy heart we remember the time

when for a moment we were a family of six

And we thrill at the wonderful kids that we have-

they are all a cute little mix.